Are We Really Happy?

Removal of cataract / cataract removal surgery

2010-01-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

I just went for my surgery today, happy to say, no pain was felt but stress level was high.
shall explain the event today in detail. Surgery on my right eye

9:30am > went to the hospital's day ward, changed into my "gown" had many many eye drops

10:15am > went outside the surgery room, changed into slippers, wore a cap and had an eye patch over left eye.

10:30am > This is where things to get scary, Immediately after i went in into the surgery room, 6 or 7 nurses led me to my bed. started asking me my IC number, helped me take my blood pressure, stick a needle in my left hand.

10:45am > Doctor came in, my face was covered by a piece of cloth, eyes was forced open by something. he Injected the anesthetic into my eyes

10:45am to 11:30am > all i heard was "Beep, Beep, Beep" and the doctor talking to the nurse, you cant really feel the pain at all. almost during the end of the operation u can finally see a light, that's when ur almost done.

To anyone who is going for the surgery, don't worry, there's no pain at all, you cant see anything too.
But my vision is still not really clear, is slightly blur, like I'm unable to focus. but I'm able to see =)

Good Things Never Last

2009-11-10T01:12:00.000+08:00

Went to catch merantu warrior today.
What a piece of crap, Ong bak totally trashed that movie.

As what i said in the Title,
So what if i get a brand new car today,
a newer better model will come out next year.
The girl you like today,
might be another one tomorrow.
The Good friend you have now,
may not even contact you tomorrow.

Time flies, People change

2009-11-08T22:32:00.001+08:00

I'm back, but not for long i guess.

Went to Johor yesterday with poly clique,
walked around, slacked around, ate around
Food was great accompany was great.
pictures should be up on facebook by the coming week.

Sometimes in my life,
i hate that i love analyzing stuff,
because the truth is never beautiful.

LOVEEVOL 9 <3

2009-05-21T20:41:00.005+08:00

Dear Tai Shang Lao Jun,

How i wish she was mine.
I SWEAR i would go out with her everyday.
Have showers with her once a week.
Accompany her to check up.
Introduce her to my family and friends.
Would call her Beautiful instead of pretty.
Would wait for her till shes done with her make up.
I would buy her Expensive gifts.
Will not let anyone snatch her away from me.
Only letting people look at her with envy.
F**K any MOTHER F**KERS who bully her
Hold her as long as possible.
Go shopping with her.

GOD, I'M Missing you already.
Please grant me my wish, although she has many ex in the past.
I DONT CARE, i dont mind.
all i want is to be with her <3
LOVE YOU EVO 9 =) will buy you when i grow up.
Thanks, Hope i will get my wish soon ;)

Wish list

2009-05-06T00:34:00.002+08:00

as you all know, my birthday is coming so im writing down a wish list
so that it is easier for you guys to buy things for me.

Xbox360 with guitar hero
ps3 with rock band set
A net book
A sony Z series laptop
A Mitsubishi evo? (REAL CAR PLEASE)
A Honda civic type R? (REAL CAR PLEASE)
Humphrey's axio? LOL (REAL CAR PLEASE)
A 3.6ghz quad core processor with latest motherboard and graphic card
A Mazda Rx8 (REAL CAR PLEASE)
the grand cathay condo
A Fucking hot babe to be my wife?
Pass my FUCKING TP
Nokia n97
A free ticket to new york and plenty of money to spend
A million dollars
Bill gates to be my god father
An Arcade machine at home? those guns one
Buy for me the whole fucking block of units at my condo
And lastly A Lamborghini. (real car please)

Thanks guys, hope u guys know what to buy already.

Btw, its a joke. If u really wanna buy me anything from above, feel free to do so.

Girls....

2009-04-27T18:49:00.005+08:00

I was wonder what time of girls do i really like?

Nice hairstyle is a must. (long hair would be a plus)
Cheerful character
"Open Minded" heheh
the face need not be very pretty, but pleasing to the eye would do.
Light makeup
Armpit SHAVED
and nice smelling girls Woooooooooo

e.g are...

Coco Jiang,jade seah

Yvonne Lim

=D

April

2009-04-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

Time passes so fast and its april already, Year 2 is starting. May is coming so remember to buy me presents hor. By the way, i would like to introduce you guys a new member to my toys

8 Megapixel camera
Touchscreen
Sleek design

Have not been clubbing with my bros, for quite awhile now, might be going next week. =) and drinking session on Thurs with a group of ppl.

So till then, WILL DEFINITELY BE BACK WITH PHOTOS!

2009-03-29T21:22:00.001+08:00

Happiie burday shu ling worx

18 yearxzx oldxz le nehx

=)
happy twiting

2009-02-09T15:56:00.001+08:00

Last day of the chinese new year, GONG XI FA CAI

This year ang pao economy has been bad, thanks to the global crisis.
Anyway was doing house chores today, ITS TIRING MAN.
So do help out with you mothers or fathers.

be back soon ;)

btw happy birthday amily =)

Life...

2009-01-09T00:59:00.001+08:00

My dad, his friend and i drank 10+ bottles of beer. while my mum just sat there.
I guess theres something wrong.... very wrong...

Happy new year

2009-01-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

Happy new year guys
May 2009 be a great year for you all

1) Pass TP on first attempt.
2) Rent a car and drive around.
3) Get a gf.
4) Don't fail any module.
5) Stay happy.
6) Study at least 2hours, 3 times/week.
7) Sleep at least 8 hours/day.
8) Save at least SGD1K.

thats all i guess?
what about yours?

Dreams.......

2008-12-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

All right i lied about the last post of 2008.... MERRY XMAS EVERYONE....

The reason why i came to blog is because i suddenly remebered a dream, which i had they day before, which is the night before christmas eve.

It started out as a family outing to Las Vegas, Weird eh? all right, there were around 15 of us in this room of a BIG motel(i assume you guys know what a motel is), we were all squeezing in this room, i can't remember why too, but we were watching television, when suddenly there was a knock on the door, i peeked out through the small peep hole and saw nothing, the hallway was dark, not really pitch dark, but dark. Somehow all my family members were getting worried.

We found torchlights and started heading out to the dark hallway, we went along to the lobby (which motel don't usually have =.=), there was a grade chandelier (Those lights with diamond hanging down). Suddenly i took my pocket knife out, while searching for people, there was no one left, after awhile, my torch light started to give up on me, i went to search for another one, this time a super long one.

I continued walking, suddenly a small girl came running towards me, she had that kind of zombie face, with those tounge, sticking out as if anyone wanted to french with her. i took my knife and stabbed her many times, no blood came out. But she died i guess. I went up to the 2nd floor, and FUCK i saw a chinese lady wearing cheong sam in one of the room (apparantly the door was open) Looking at me, seated by the dressing table, For sure i ran...

Suddenly, me and my family went to the great shopping center a street across away from the mortel, having mac. I was thinking why the fuck are we eating mac and theres so many people in mac at that time. The zombies dint came out either.

And than i woke up, i tried sleeping to find out the ending, but i coundn't sleep. I seriously enjoyed this dream, is either i have been wanting to play left 4 dead too much, or i watch too much quaratined. I remeber having this dream about zombie once too.

Have you ever had the same type of dream, But after a long period of time maybe a few weeks or months or years. thats why i'm writing it down so i can trackback when i dream of this again.
Have you ever been scared by a dream, till this day you still remeber vividly what happen? i have, but that would be another post to tell you guys.

MERRY XMAS GUYS..... LOOKING FORWARD TO 2009

2008-12-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

I'm bored....... Congratulation to those who passed their N levels. If you didn't do well, i know you tried your best. Especially Claris, Nadine and cui lian, congrats =)
think you guys should treat me lunch already hor.....

I've got many stuff to blog actually, but lets keep those good for next year, starting the year with good laughs is great... so here i am doing a wrap up for year 2008.

It has been a great year for me, passing my Os, getting to poly, knowing a bunch of great classmates, i hope its the same for you guys too. Not bad a year seriously, but if some bad stuff haven't happen, it would be a great year. Bad stuff like my eye? Economy crisis, me breaking up with my girlfriend? The hot streamy love we made, the great times we spend together, and the bad times when we broke up. All right i made up the part where i have a girlfriend, lol.

Christmas is round the corner, do you guys have any plans? Any loves one to go out with? Any confession to the person you love? its all the time to do it at this time. Because you get to kill 2 birds with one stone.. imagine your 10 years anniversary is on Christmas, you only have to buy 1 gift, isn't that great?

All right im loss for words already, see ya next year.... Enjoy your Christmas.... and a happy new year to you too.

be back next year .

counting on ur downs make u even down-er

2008-11-27T22:56:00.003+08:00

ZC told me this today, "counting on ur downs make u even down-er", which i found it yeah quite true.... and i wonder where she get all this shit from man. such good shit...

My beloved mouse died today anyone wanna get me a GOOD mouse for christmas?

Mums and dad birthday are just a few days away and im not getting anything for them LOL.

Mitchell's going into NS and so is ham

Common test is just a week away

Projects are pilling up

I miss my friends like pat, aloy, mitch, claris, wanting,jie ling, huili, grace, wei leong, haikel and many more.

I <3 my psp

i just reformatted my desktop so no songs

life sucks

and your lifes sucks even more

NAH updated

and by the way JC is cute and so is zc LOL

2008-11-09T00:01:00.003+08:00

To this special person.... lets call her Rannie(btw rannie was my ex dog name LOL)

I was reading her blog today, from her very first post to the current post, i shall admit, people do change, i seen her change so much. From the very sad her to the current her. I'm happy for her and i know that She will always be there for me... I miss those days but i guess the days for you now are the sweetest moment in you're life=) memories will always be memories.

I will always remember the days we spent, OH and i left out your name is because i don't wish so many people to guess this out haha. You should know who you are. Takecare =) You will always be in my heart, even though I'm not in yours anymore sigh...

P.S I FUCKING HATE THAT GUY, L(i doubt he read this too).

2008-11-04T20:03:00.009+08:00

I know u guys are missing me, But i got lots of things to do, for example watching W in HotShot. IF you dont know who W is, she is a Hot lady in the drama. Alright i have seen many things for the past weeks and Im here to share it with you guys.

I was taking the MRT(mass rapid transit) if you dont know what is mrt and you're a singaporean go flush you're head in the toilet bowl. I saw this Hot babe, she was in her super short mini dress i should say and she was the center of attraction in the whole cabin(this has nothing to do with the story), As i was looking down on the floor I saw ronald macdonald shoes. I was damn shocked man, why would anyone wear a pair of shorts with a pair of shoes like his.

What a shoe man....

Alright if this was not weird enough, there something more, i was waiting to watch The Coffin the other day at Grand Cathay. We were hanging around the area looking upon the sky view when suddenly something caught my attention, it sure did make me feel itchy too.

"Dear itchy lei help me scratch"

"higher abit higer abit..."

Girl:"Hopless man you, i do it myself..."
Guy:"sorry lar dear...*gives her the look*"

Girl:"arh... there a hair here too... heng i felt it..."

WHICH fucking boyfriend would every scratch his gf armpit in the public? I mean if you do it yourself and do it quickly its still alright... IF he had armpit fetish he should have did it at home, making me see all those scratching made my armpit felt itchy too.... Weird people.... But she did shave her armpit at least =)

AND I JUST READ AN EMAIL.... GOSH MY NIPPLES ARE FEELING ITCHY TOO....
if you guys wanna see it do tell me and i shall send it to you, GOD DAMN IT FUCKING ITCHY WORLD.

Is your armpit itching now?
P.S the comments were place there for illustrative purposes only, Anything incident which is related is purely coincidental.

Thanks.....

2008-11-04T19:55:00.005+08:00

The below was awarded to me by ZC. Kiampah candyThe rules of the award are:
The winner can put the logo on her blog.
Link the person you received your award from.
Nominate at least 7 other blogs.Put links of those blogs on yours.
I've nominated to the follow:

Claris
Stephanie
Shuling
Xiao Mei
Gary
Tiantian@pixnet
Nadine

Thanks ZC im so glad u nominated me =)

aww fuck this kind of thing man

Hotline numbers,,,

2008-10-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, my vision is not as good as that day I think, I really hope i would be able to go for the operation sooner so i can see more stuff properly especially SOMETHING. So if you guys wanna donate please call the following Hot lines:

To donate 10/5cents please call 999 and tell them you're an idiot. (WHO THE FUCK WILL TAKE A 10/5cents donation.)
To donate 10 dollars please drop me an email at Chanrusnetmum@hotmail.com
To donate 50 dollars please call me at 9_______ i guess you all know my number already
For donation of 50 dollars and above, Give me a call and i take a cab down to meet you =)

Donation hot lines will be open till December 3000. All proceeds will go the the Russell foundation scheme to operate on his eyes and other stuff. Thank you for Donating your money to help the less fortunate =).

If you are unable to reach me and wish to donate some money, please leave me a message in my text box and i will get back to you as soon as possible.

2008-10-18T22:01:00.005+08:00

I've guess some of you have heard it or some of you have not. Those who do not know, you would ask"Russell what happen?". I shall tell you now what happened.

On 17 October, after my outing with my friends at orchard, i headed home. My mum called and i decided to tell her about my eye which was blur and misty( those kind of vision which you get after swimming without your goggles). she told me to visit the doctor which i did. Thinking that it was an infection i visited the doctor, when i went in i told her my eyes were blur and misty, after some checks she told me she was referering me to the hospital immediately. As i was about to leave she told me good luck and all the best. I was shocked already at that point of time. I quickly paid up and went home to meet my parents. we went to Alexandra hospital, A&E department which i was quickly served by a nurse, i was real scared, but i started to talk to the nurse, telling him how naggy my mum was bla bla bla.

After he checked me, i seated for around a minute and i cut damn alot of people queues and went in. Met my doctor and did another few test and told us that he would call an eye specialist to come. My eye specialist came and did a check and could not tell, so he said he had to put a few drops of eye lotion which would sting me. YES it did sting, i was told to keep my closed and the process was repeated 2 more times.

He took me to a room where he checked my eyes with a bright light. Asking me to look at all direction and he told me that i had something called a cataract. A Cataractis a clouding that develops in the crysteline lens of the eye or in its envelope, varying in degree from slight to complete opacity and obstructing the passage of light. Cataracts typically progress slowly to cause Vision loss and are potentially blinding if untreated(extract from wikipedia). The light the doctor use to check my eyes was FUCKING PAIN and his hands had the smell of curry. There were 2 options both with a bad side effect.

Option 1: is to live with it, the misty and blur picture which i got. But if the cataract grew i would have to remove it too.
Option 2: is to operate it, removing my lens from my eyes replacing it with an artifical lens, allowing me to look. But because its an artifical lens i would not be able to read a book, i would have near sightness. And i have to operate both my eyes as if i only operate one eye, i would be having dual vision of a same thing. (Imagine i wont be able to have sex without my specs! god damn it).

I would go back in 4 months time and see how.

From what my mother told me, she saw that my cataract was a star shaped like this:

This is not my eye. Maybe is a god sent gift. I may have x-ray eyes or laser shooting eyes or i might be able to see ghost. But i hope to have x-ray eyes so girls beware heheh. By the way i have a sharingan, heheh. Cool eye right? most likely i wont be able to even go pes B now as i cant even shoot a rifle and i have a curved back bone with eczema.

Ps: the doctor really had curry smell on his fingers, coz i think indians use their hands to eat rice and curry or he just had nasi brani, Who knows?

Hainan..........

2008-10-13T18:46:00.030+08:00

Happy birthday xmei
Happy belated birthday alvin(12 oct)

Yeah, I'm back from China, I have learnt many things during this trip there. By the way, Sanya is a really beautiful place, BUT only if you go with you're loved ones (eg. girlfriend/boyfriend, Wife/husband) that's because what you do there is mainly relaxing by the beach, having a coconut in one hand and ~~Boobies~~ books on the other hand. Suntan lotion to rub all over your partner's body heheh. but too bad i was with my family members. The beach was nice.

There was this time where we were taking a bus from the east to the west side of Sanya by bus, Halfway through the journey, the bus stopped and the conductor told us that he was switching us to another car, and GOD it was a taxi, From a bus to a cab while paying bus fare. We boarded a cab. Apparently that cabbed the queue, making all the other drivers pissed off, their started to get out of their cabs and stood in front of our cab, not wanting to move. While they quarreled one taxi driver sat on the bonnet and our bloody taxi driver moved, almost killing that taxi driver. Too bad i didn't snap a picture.

At the west end of Sanya we went to see the world tallest guan yin ma statue.

Followed by a walk around the supermarket and a supermarket is sure one place where you feel very localized. In Hainan It's okay to walk in the supermarket ~~with~~ without your shirt. and people don't give a damn about it too. It must have been real cooling.

As i was walking down the stairs, i saw a sign and laughed my ass off. I wonder what would some people who didn't know Chinese do if they saw this sign. Maybe they would be dumb enough to actually follow it. WOULD YOU? by the way i didn't

As i was stepping out of the supermarket i saw this cute little baby in a pram, But what caught my attention was not the baby but the pram, it was homemade, how unique, you cant see this in singapore.

On my last day in china, i had lunch in a restaurant and it was crowded and noisy, just don't understand why china people cant speak softly maybe they were happy as it was a baby boy full month celebration.The singer was there yelling and screaming making life torturing for me. ( To the singer, if you're reading this, go fuck yourself your singing sucks and no ones listening to your singing too.)

The food was not bad, But then, my dad felt like trying a Hainan dessert so we ordered a yam and coconut desert thinking it would be something like Orh-nee(yam paste) if you don't know what it is click here. What came out was a total different thing. It tasted salty and yucky.

As we were heading to the airport i realized that 90% of the taxi driver or maybe more had long thumb nails, I'm not sure why too, maybe its to scratch money out of the customer.

I was on the plane home, except for a few babies crying and a few china chinese nationals talking loudly everything was alright as i had the whole row by myself.

Thanks to tiger airways for allowing me to go Hainan. For the cheapest flights, Visit www.tigerairways.com.

So in this trip i found out that:

Its okay to take off your shirt in a supermarket.
If you're feeling hot but you're outside you can lift up you're shirt and expose your tummy, it's really quite cooling.
You must carefully bang head on the wall while going down the stairs with low ceilings
If a bus driver doesn't feel like driving on, he would switch you to a cab for free.
Its okay to move you're car when someone is sitting on you're bonnet.
when you have a child and you're celebrating his/her full month hire a better singer.
Hainan desserts sucks
Taxi drivers in Singapore should try leaving long thumbnails too.
China girls don't shave their armpit hairs
China girls are not hygienic( shall blog about this another time)
It's possible for 4 people to be on a motorbike.
Hainan drivers enjoy horning their horns.

Was asked to change photo, different photo same shit
A picture of a china girl =) Nah she's my friend and she shaves her armpit hair, i checked LOL.
and what is that guy looking at?

Have you shaved your armpit hair today?

Simple things that go way much further

2008-10-06T14:49:00.005+08:00

As i was on my way home today, I was thinking about many things, as i was thinking I saw a young female Singaporean giving up her seat for an old man. When she did that, The old man gave her a very sincere smile. It really makes people's heart melts when this type of situation appears. By giving up her seat, she enabled the old man to seat with his wife. I'm sure that by this act of kindness it made the young lady and the old man to feel great. As i was leaving the bus, the old man was holding the hand of his wife, Yes they are very sweet and loving, even at such an age. See what loves can do.

Another thing that i have observed what love can do is as simple as having a family dinner by the hawker center with the whole family. It may be simple by just going down to have dinner, But to some others, Its an enjoyment, a type of happiness. This is because they rarely have dinner outside, But during the trip down to the hawker center, The whole family were smiling, chatting, having fun as if they had strike Toto or something. Brothers and sisters are busily eating, drinking and taking photos. But what amaze me is that they are all smiling =). It fucking touched my heart.

Maybe its because they have a big family or something. But to me, if i had a sister, Though i would bully her, But i wont mind working hard for a whole day just to buy something to see her smile. I have seen occasions where people have sacrificed just to see their younger sibling smile
let me give you an example:
An older sibling has only a sweet and he/she really wants to eat it, But ends up giving it to his/her younger sibling. Just to see the smile on the younger sibling's face.

Or maybe if i had a elder sister or brother, they might teach me the facts of life, teaching me my homework, sharing stuff with me. So give it a thought about how you simple things can affect your siblings. Look it a single child point of view, Life would be more great if you look it through my point of view.

When i have a child, i think i would be a FUCKING bad father, as i would pamper my child to the max just to see the smile on his/her face. Same goes for my wife. Life is like that, you would be more willing to spend money on you're loved ones, instead of ourselves.

And today, many people were kind to me, my boss called me at 10 wanting to inform me about the time change in work, but i was already out, so i told him its okay. So i went to hang around esplanade till 12. When he came, he bought me coffee, that's a single act of kindness right? we had chats about upcoming shows, bla bla bla. Then we went to the security room to request for a pass, the security guard treated us to drink 100 plus, people are so nice today. The best thing of today was that when i was about to finish work, around 2. My boss told me to sign in at 10am, giving me extra 2 hours of pay and i have been receiving tips this days. Thats how kind people can be. So who says Singaporeans are unkind?

Give a thought about it =)
ps. sorry about the absence in my blog, i have been working.
And fuck im becoming sentimental.

Maybe...

2008-09-28T02:02:00.003+08:00

Maybe what ever i thought was just a facade?

The bus drivers being assholes, they are actually nice people who knows how to park today except for that few.
The cisco guard being fucking authoritative, maybe he was just talking loudly.

Maybe whatever i thought the way was, is wrong. I've been wrong all this while. I just cant tell whats right and wrong now.

BUT, who gives a fuck anyway.

I enjoy scolding bus drivers, making life fucked up for everyone heheh and my fucking colleagues is still A FUCKED UP GUY.

Being considerate...

2008-09-27T02:00:00.007+08:00

As i was working today, I have met many types of people, These people are way FUCKING inconsiderate. Here are the few examples:

FUCKING BUS DRIVERS who cant seem to park according to their allocated parking lots, making traffic marshals do so much extra work.
SOME FUCKING CISCO GUARDS, Don't think that working with cisco gives you the right to scold us. GO FUCK YOURSELF.
PEDESTRIANS who cant listen to traffic marshals who are trying to save their ass from being creamed by some bus or cars.
Some guy's who is girly and says " This is Singapore, we cant just cross the road like that with his hand waving in the air like some transsexual."
Lastly is some colleagues, Who think they are so big just cause they have some light stick or something. I have a dick bigger then that okay, BITCH!

Can't god just flush away this inconsiderate people in the toiletbowl. FUCK! And i love scolding bus driver's off who parks their buses at any spots they like cause they do not want their bus to get dirty.

Oh God please make all this ~~ASSHOLES~~ FUCKERS gone. Thanks and sorry for such a vulgar post.

p.s happy birthday haikel, 18 and get muscular

Traumatized for life

2008-09-25T19:32:00.006+08:00

I remember when i was young, I had this Cousin, Handsome. He was in primary 3 when this ~~Funny~~ unfortunate event happened. We were having lunch with my parents at this restaurant called "Dolphin". Handsome suddenly had the urge to use the restroom and had excused himself from the table.

After 10mins, he was still in there, My Dad being concerned, went in and checked on him. Which i later found out that he shitted on his pants, Reason for shitting on his pants was that he could not unbuckle his pants. As he was only in primary 3, he was confused and didn't know what else to do beside to cry in the toilet. Poor child, don't you agree? if you don't you're a mean fucker.

My mum had to use a toilet hose to wash him up, cleaning up the mess he made, while my dad went to the nearest shopping center which i think was OG Chinatown. When he came out of the toilet, many eyes were looking at him, wondering why he was in the toilet for so long, and why they had to close the toilet so that my mum could wash him up.

Luckily my mum was smart to give an excuse that the toilet was pretty dark and that he had stepped into toilet bowl(those squatting type). They were so worried and give use a voucher.
If you read till here and somehow realize that handsome was me, i salute you. I was really traumatize by that incident and have never been back to that restaurant, EVER. If you're laughing at me now, What would you have done if you were in my shoes, You just shitted on your pants, You're in a nice restaurant and you're only a 10 year old kid.

Why would i post something like this? It's because last night i was chatting with Stephanie and was kinda bored so i decided to exchange our Most embarrassing moments in our lives. If you wanna know what her embarrassing moment are, Pay me 10 bucks then only i would tell you. heheh Stephanie you're secret's safe with me.

Oh by the way my 3 years pluse keyboard had just gave up on me before i was posting this post. Do rest in peace. I love you.

ps: if you're still laughing go fuck yourself, imagine how you would feel if someone laughed at you, how sad that person would be.

swearing

2008-09-24T00:29:00.004+08:00

Research has shown that by cursing or swearing more often, you would better. Lets get an scenario, If Guy A was next to you, Screaming his lungs out, with saliva coming out from his mouth, Saliva which contain micro bacteria which will bite through your skin. What would you do?

Move away from him
Advise him to brush his teeth
scold the fuck out of him, if he shouts back punch him in the face

For me i would personally choose number 1 3. I'm actually a gentle person, but with bad breath and saliva it makes my blood boil.

If i had not chosen 3 and instead i chose 1, i would be keeping this anger in my heart, till the day he pisses me off where i would take a Stick and kill him. Thus swearing is considered good. Have you ever read a newspaper that a top student or some nerd having a killing rampage in the US? That's because he does not swearing. If the next time you're feeling angry just scream FUCK! that's what i normally do =) that's why I'm always cheerful.

Main point, swearing is good and i enjoy doing it. FUCK

Another community service by Russell Chan

Girls...

2008-09-23T21:20:00.004+08:00

For thousand of centuries, Guys has been attracted to girls and vice versa. I too have not been spared from this tragedy.Girls have the power to dominate guys with their tears or innocent looks
I'm just not sure why guys always seems to fall under their charms when girls have as many pros and cons

I'm evil lets talk about the Cons:

They make us horny
They dominate over our strengths by giving us a innocent face, a pretty smile or teary eyes.
They make us wanna pamper them which cost money
They love window shopping( cant they just choose what they want and buy it?)
They get angry for no apparent reason at a time of the month
They make our nose bleed each time they dress to kill
They always win in arguments
They are hard to please
They make our heart shatters whenever we quarrel
and many more, blogspot were to close down if i listed them all

Okay, lets talk about the Pros:

They make porn possible
They gives us warm hugs and sweet kisses
They look cute when they fall asleep
They are good to talk to when we are in need of troubles
They are there in times of need
and many more

The losing advantage that a guys has is When the world LOVE comes in,

It seems all the Cons have disappeared

Now you guys may ask, What is LOVE?
seriously I'm not sure too. For i sure do know, I don't know how to love anybody and I'm not a really good boyfriend(based on past experience) but I'm a fucking good friend yeah.

Someday i hope which ever god might come down, might it be Lao zi on a cloud gliding down, Or Jesus whispering by my ear, Or the gods in temple coming alive to tell me What love is.

Don't blame me, Blame the love story i just watch.
I don't understand why i can't get love =(
Oh by the way anyone interested in a 18 male,Singaporean 1.86m tall with a big dick please contact me. heheh

Sorry about the previous 2 post, i was FUCKING bored, thus the post

How to make/mantain a new friend

2008-09-23T17:29:00.005+08:00

I know it bad to laugh at someone dumb acts, but sometime, when you're bored,
Anything goes, from the glorious moment of you falling down, or the moment
when you were caught by your parents watching ~~Porn~~ Youtube videos.
The problem is that my ~~dumb acts~~ stories aren't as interesting as other peoples.

There's another guy in my class, Longan, I don't know if it's just me or what, But i cant figure out whats wrong with him, it was either he worn his pants too high or his body is too short. If he was already such a ~~FREAK~~ weirdo, he obviously should have some good character
(like me, I'm nice guy remember?). He used to be a fine chap until one day, i discovered that he started to call/sms my friend, Baba. Baba is a friendly/funny/clever guy. So Baba interected with most of our classmates as he was friendly. but i think this ~~FREAK~~ guy thought he was cool. He tried to get along with class, I would on the other hand felt that if he acted normal, he would be able to make friends in class. that's not all read on.

If you're a normal guy, you would be able to notice that being new friends, what you do leaves an
impression to some ~~Bastards~~ awesome guys like me. Guys like me are very sociable
and loves to makes friends and we care for the environment, animals and love world peace, But if we are new friends and you start calling me and smsing me,i would really kinda freak out.
So did Baba, he sure was afraid. But the bunch of us, just laugh our ass away heheh.

since I'm such a nice guy I would share with you tips on making new friends.

Never call/sms a guy friend(if you're a guy), to talk about movies or whatever theres a invention called the MSN. But if its girls( and you're a guy) by all means go ahead.
Never try to act cool by going Yo Yo Yo or whatever crap. DUDE THIS IS SINGAPORE NOT USA OR SOME HIP HOP COUNTRY.
Wear your pants lower, but not till it shows you're butt man and not high till it reaches you're tits or whatever you call them.
Try not to outcast yourself, Self confidence is very important(sadly i dont have much too).
If you know you are kinda being outcasted, try to talk to someone who doesn't outcast you that much E.g Russell, Russell, did i say Russell?
If you're not invited to go out, please don't follow. It makes some people feel uneasy, it also makes you look as if you have no friends. E.G Rob went lunch with us one afternoon without us inviting him, making himself look like an outcast and also made our dear sweety uncomfortable.

If Longan would have read this self help guide, i guess he would have loads of friends and spared
himself the outcast in class.

Main point, don't ever message a new friend guy and talk about some irrelevant like "whats on tv now". Just go rape some kid or whatever.

Another community service by Russell Chan

Rob Part 1

2008-09-22T13:17:00.009+08:00

Was reading through my post recently, I was such a fucking dumb ass.
Didn't know i could type those shit, Its real funny to look back in the past,
to realize that what you used to do were so secondary school.
Maybe passing the 18 years old mark does make me more mature,
or maybe going into poly changes a guy. I believe its both.
I'm sure many of you have gone through this stage of life too right?
So if u wanna have a good laugh go back to my previous post and look,
and by the way I have blogged for exactly 1 year.

Within this year, Many things has changed. I have gotten into a new school,
Made many new friends ( good friends and some dumb ass friends too).
Have you ever realize that, whichever school you go too, whichever class you get into,
There will always be this guy who would isolate himself from the class.
We won't ever know whats going through their brains or if they have one?
But somehow they are really ~~Bookworms~~ Clever.
During our E-Quiz, they seemed to know everything.
But ain't that stupid too. The best thing is that they are very courageous.

What do i mean by courageous? read on,
*I'm not pin pointing anyone here. names are changed for privacy issues.
And if you happen to know who you are, and you're angry, go fuck yourself.

There always this type of guy in my class,
Okay lets name this ~~Nerd~~ Courageous dude, Rob.
Rob is a ~~typical~~ weird guy, Clever at times,
and Irritating most of the other times.He like this girl,
lets call her Sweety. Sweety was an average girl with a jack ass(a very protruding ass actually),
is cute and innocent and loved by the class, One day, Rob was telling sweety how lonely he was,
and ask her if she wanna go out ( If only i had those kind of confidence,I'd surely be more
successful then him), they only knew each other for a few days. That's not all read on

We were having a chalet, Rob and his friends for some reasons which i didn't know why,
Did not sleep for the entire 2 night, i sure pitied them a whole lot, caused the rest of us
were fighting for spaces to sleep. while sweety was sleeping, Rob sat infront of her
and guarded the door for her, how sweet awwwww. Sweety was also telling me that
Rob was giving her those weird stares and bla bla bla, which only made my group of
friends laugh our ass off.

Okay the sweety days are over already, Rob, apparently or i think so
likes this girl, May. May would be one of the prettier one in class, thus Rob was attracted to her
Rob started to ICQ her everyday making May irritated. Okay this story Does not have an
ending will post when there is =)

The main point is Why do they have the fucking courage to do this kind of shit.
okay i was bored and i wanted to blog, see its a fucking long post to me.
if you know who you guys are do msg me heheh

p.s if they were able to get any one of them, i would flush myself away in the toilet bowl.

2008-09-22T00:53:00.004+08:00

xiaomei ask me to update. so nw i am updating.
by the way I know I'm awesome, so dont get jealous

2008-09-21T16:32:00.002+08:00

My hunt for a neat, simple and clean cut blogskin begins today
Problem with the current blogskin is that I'm sick of the orange
and the way my post are displayed it looks real messy

I was thinking about what to post in here, I have shit loads of things
going through my mind, But when i click to the posting page,
my brain just kinda black out.

argh fuck
I'm not gonna blog today

2008-09-20T00:28:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAT
18 liao lets go clubbing together

or maybe not

2008-09-01T15:51:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday wanting, 18 years old liao can go clubbing, can go 7/11 buy liquor liao
AND
happy birthday fatty leong, no longer a teen congrats =)

2008-08-31T16:32:00.008+08:00

Hi dude
how are you guys
and yes clarisa, my blog has become a wishing blog lol
too many friends birthday recently
theres 1 tmr too
yup that day went zouk with aloy, mitchell,pat,rachel and clio
clio went off with her friends

we started out by trying to get in
luckily pat made it through
we got our chops then went to zion market to drink tiger =.=
went back to zouk there
went to the wine bar
it was happy hour so we ordered 2 Graveyard
followed by E-thirty-3 with syrup
went in to zouk discovered that was 1 for 1 inside too
drank 1 shot of sambuca
then ordered 2 jugs of long island tea
i was still okay before the long island tea
after the long island tea
the kick hit me all at one shot
then dunnoe who ask me to go put rachel bag into the locker
i went when i came back rachel was still alright
went dancing with aloy and pat
when we came back
rachel was wasted already
the bartender sort of my friend kept giving water
but he was a trainee i saw HAHAH
most bartender wun give so many glasses of water
the rest is a mystery
find out from anyone of us if u wanna know more
please contact 1900-ask-mitchell

This is how we look when we are all high haha

2008-08-28T18:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday thai jin
hope you'll have a happy happy birthday k
i havent buy ur present yet =x
will buy soon and meet up with you la lol

I'm still considering if i should work?

2008-08-27T01:07:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Tan Meng Liang, Aloysius
18 liao, no need to secretly sneak in to any clubs
enjoy your day man

Exams are over
death race is nice

2008-08-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

Sunday morning 12am, went to celebrate stephanie birthday
can you believe it,
her birthday she stayed at home the whole day!
went to geylang for dim sum, followed by durian
walked home from alj
crapped with alvin and tf till 6+

today went to study
though i didn't study much
i still had a great time
haha

Sometimes i wonder,
why do other people have that kind of luxury
why no matter what i do
no matter how hard tried
i do not get the results i want
Input is not equal to output
thus
Input > Output

haha
study too much le lar
Sometimes its fate
Sometimes its just me

2008-08-23T17:28:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday steph! ( Don't know how many times i wished her already =.= )

Yup steph and hui ping came by to my house yesterday,
Supposed to study, but i guess they were attracted to something big ^^

something real big.......

really big which distracted them........................

Its my computer screen la, think dirty nia.....
ya... then we were surfing the net bla bla bla
they cam whored bla bla bla
they played with my fortune teller bottle.....
followed by dinner at adam's corner
then something happen
steph was drinking her bandung
then i saw a cat running to her area
it happen too fast, wanted to tell her that a cat was there
then i was wondering why no reaction,
suddenly she flipped her glass of bandung
luckily i avoided it fast, if not i would be drenched in bandung
and the sting ray at adam corner is really big
or maybe just for that meal

And now im at home doing nothing
watching movies only
reading blogs
listening songs
Tonight might be going to drink with xmei, alvin and rs they all
or double O with my god sis
or i might just stay at home

and oh ya i suddenly remembered about a video of a dance
which made me felt that this video captured more than the joy of traveling...
and showed the human connection beyond territorial boundaries.
(thru a strange and unique experience)

enjoy this video
it took 14 months, 42 countries and a cast of thousand

yup thats all quite a long post today eh

2008-08-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

Oh ya Happy birthday Grace!
Old liao

Hmm i went to cut my hair today
tried a New hair cut. hmmm

Many things happened recently
most happening would be the chalet with my class
this time it was more fun as the chalet was bigger
everyone had a bed, though me rs and tf shared two beds
coz none of us wanted to sleep on the mattress
the girls did most of the bbq
and the guys played dota
ahhh ya, xmei and shuling tried to learn dota
they managed to learn how to control but as to who is the enemy they are still not quite sure
and im sick, coz tf went to the chalet when he was already sick, damn steady
but he still passed me his flu haha

oh and before the chalet,
went clubbing with mitch and aloy,
I was shocked that i danced with a transexual
coz she/he was damn pretty LOL

ya thats all
tc
and i've updated hor

2008-07-30T06:55:00.006+08:00

Since im free now
shall briefly go through whats happening
I woke up at 6
coz i promised liying to lend her my cs3
which i coundn't find last night
so i decided to wake up at 6 to find it
after half an hour of searching,
it was in a bag =.=

2008-07-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today Brought my childhood photos to school,
wanted to ask xiao mei to scan,
But there was too many, so i'll just have to find my driver and scan it myself.
I love myself when i was younger,
I was damn cute looking haha
shall post some photos when I've scan them.

Whilst looking at those photo,
I've come to realize that,
My dad used to smile more in the past,
He used to take very good care of me,
Not say that he dosen't now,
just that he never shows it now.

In those photos,
there were pictures of my grandmothers.
They used to love me alot,
but sad to say, they all have left me.

Being the only child sucks,
What if my parents met an accident one day?
I'll be all alone, With no one to call family.
No Grandparents to takecare of me like those in the movies.
I'll be all alone... Treasure your love ones today.
Thats all i guess, got school early tomorrow.
Take care, Good night and Sweet dreams

2008-07-13T19:09:00.002+08:00

Been clearing my room today.
Bought a bottle of loreal out of bed look wax/something
lol im not really sure whats that, coz i asked my auntie to help me buy.
it looks hmm not like wax haha
shall try it out, if it sucks
i back to Gatsby.

went to study after my ccna lesson ytd with aloy,mitch and nadine
wanted to intro my friend to nadine
haha had a great time disturbing her
after studying went to play lan till this morning 6
kinda no life lol,
but it beats going to clubbing
coz its cheaper
haha btw mos had a shuffle event
anybody went?
i wanna play a game, just dont know what game

2008-07-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

hey guys! how has life been? I guess I'm back to blogging? but not too often
Poly life for me has been a tough but great journey for me
the friends i made are all funny jokers
and the best thing is that we are united =)
unlike other classes where the classes are already separated into groups
but the way of studying there is terrible
no teacher to push you,
no revision books to teach you,
no tuition teachers to hire,
poly life is tough but fun haha.

yeah i need to do some stuffs, and lobang do sms or tag me alright?
-500gb internal hard disk drive = cheapest i found 138 dollar 7200rpm ata
(hmm my motherboard does support sata? but im using ata guess i stick to ata)
-nvdia geforce graphic card 8600GT = cheapest i found is 109 dollars
-250gb portable hard disk = 134 dollar memorex(looks cool)
i guess thats all =( gotta spend money agian to make my desktop a good one
with a new speaker,big screen how much more can i ask ah!!!!

if u all wanna buy me any of this stuff i don't mind 1 haha

2008-06-28T12:54:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Claris
lol see i blogged for you
this blog is supposed to be dead
you're the best sister i can ever have
though you're bla bla bla bla at times
but then you're bla bla black sheep too.
haha

and to all those who frequently vist my blog
hmm, its not dead yet give it a chance
look out for changes in this page
it's not gonna be soon
but i assure you
there will be something to see =)

2008-04-02T02:03:00.014+08:00

firstly im gonna have a long post today i guess
im in a real happy mood now
a mood where i can blog

alright first off

My parents, pic take in china

hmm... my dad, his always those stern kind of father
but i knew he always love me, just that he does not show it
in fact i love my dad too, its just that two guys don't really talk much
let alone show love =X lol
i have always respected him in my life
place him as my role model

my mum, she always nagging about this and that
sometime i do shout at her, but i always feel guilty after shouting at her
but it just get to irritating at times
but i love you mum, i know you are reading this
i don't know how you got the address of my blog
but i know you're reading this

this two people in my life are the first person who
cared for me, love me and raised me

next off

My dear mei, claris. pic in sakae if im right

she was the one who stood by me in times of trouble
i know we don't have any decent photos
but i know she be there when i have problems
you maybe quite irritating at times ( you know what i mean :] )
but you're nice overall
i will never forget you =) stay happy ya!

followed by

Mr aloysius, pic in genting

we know each other for like the fifth year?
we do clique really well
we can pick each other brain very well
play lan games together with mitchell
play cabal, play RO till i got scammed by ahem
yeah we had great times together
bros for life huh? haha

wanting, also known as Ah tiang, pic from prom night '07

shes the girl who everyone say she's pretty and bla bla bla
and shes my good friend
she lends me a listening ear when i see her
i lend her mine too
we're sort of helping each other out haha
she accompany me to school last year
to tuition
she a nice friend to have and im glad to know her =)

mitchell liang, pic at taka

sometimes his nice, sometimes his gay, sometimes his guai lan
but still his my bro
we 3 guys went to our first clubbing session together,
played lan together
hang out together
what can i say?
you guys know it and i know it can liao

finally sister 11, pic taken at ecp toward changi

this are the group of people that have made life fun for me
during my sec 5 period, without them
i would be some introvert or pervert LOL

Wei leong a.k.a fatty, pic taken at fork and spoon

lame guy, WCG champion, emotional and observant
he is that kind of guy who would lame you to death
admit his right even though his wrong
disturb you at msn if he is bored
know secrets and keep it from you,
but tells you he know secrets @#$%^
funny at times lar, enough liao lar getting late liao still so many people

next off would be haikel siew, pic at night study '06

funny and interesting guy
easy to talk to
and fun to disturb wei leong with him
haha
had great times drinking with him
=x

the twins, seha and ira, pic taken while in lesson

seha would always laugh with me during chem classes
ms toh would always do something funny
and seha would turn and look at me and start laughing
naturally i would start laughing too

ira hmm, nothing much about her
except that she always misses me =X
haha

chia how, pic at fork and spoon

nothing much about him either
we had fun as a class
went to gym together
lamed around in class

Genisha, Loud speaker. pic at prom night '06

she was the one who crapped with through out night studies
told me who she liked and made me told her who i liked
played matchmaker for me and grace
we would be laughing at nothing
during night studies.
miss those days
but she suddenly disappeared without a trace
i hope she would suddenly give me a call or something
i'll be glad
life would be different without her

patrina, pic at genting bus station

spent good times with her
shared nice songs with her
she really has nice songs
or maybe songs which i like
too bad lar too short lol
too teh at times
you are truly a good friend to have =)

thai jin, aka thai girl, pic at modesto orchard

my god, retard face of mine but its the only pic i have
with thai girl
she still owes me a ice cream cone

nadine, pic at prom '06

she the famous girl who i copied her photo taking pose
haha she hits like a guy but looks like a girl
fun to be with, nice to disturb and she sends me nice song too
=) bangbus haha

to jac, winnie, mt
sorry i dun have your photos
but you will always be my friends =) i love you guys too

to gladys, serene, mefline, xiu qi,
you guys have been part of my life too
i would never forget you guys too
not guys =X meis haha

to matthew, ajmal, amos and eraidie
you guys have been part of my life too
thanks

to hui li:
hey thanks for that two years
although you made me emo at times
but you made me happy too
thanks

mr kong, pic at a board outside general office

lol funny pic
mr kong is a fun teacher
full of crap
he taught me how to jio a girl haha
he has never been angry at me
even though i play during his class
play pranks at him
his really a nice form teacher

mdm sri

pretty F&N teacher
and i miss her the most
i dunnoe why
maybe coz im close to her
or i like F&N haha

ms kavita

she was the only teacher who made me sit down and study
and thanks to her i passed my ss
=) thanks alot hope you wont have anymore students like me =X

grace wong

you thought i forgotten about you right?
too bad i never
we skipped classes to play floorball
locked teachers in the toilet
and studied chem together
i enjoy spending my time with you =)
and i will never forget you

all the precious memories
priceless

for everything else
there mastercard
thanks haumphrey =P

<3

2008-04-01T13:28:00.003+08:00

went to east coast park with sister 11
ham had to leave early for some reasons
so all 7 of us cycled to changi village to have nasi lemak
riding there was alright
only there was a stretch of road which seems never ending
coming back was hell
we were rushing for time
butts were getting pain
our legs were getting tired
and that bloodly long stretch of road
was so long that i lost concentration
and went onto the grass
which was bumpy and cause my butt more agony
but we made it back to the shop
wei leong made it back last lol

on my way home
there was this bloodly @#$% guy
who kept staring at me
lol maybe im too handsome already
great relaxing day
better then working ;)

you're sick agian
takecare

2008-03-29T11:08:00.003+08:00

work is nothing but disappointment
just when things are going smoothly for me
something would just pop up and ruin everything thing I'd done
the pieces of hardwork place in to my job
was ruin by a bunch of customer yesterday
they were rushing to see clothes that they went inside the counter
we ended up losing 49 dollar.
another incident was one customer had dropped his credit card into this hole
which i had to dismantle my stand just to take it out for him
especially if there was 100+ customer waiting
i was such in a hurry that i hit my face against a the corner of the counter
and now its bleeding
i think my boss has lost faith in me AGIAN.

another which made me sad was that i had to work tonight
had to cancel plans made with aloy and huili
they may not say anything but i know they had cancel plans for tonight
im real sorry

and lastly
when i was going home last night
i was practically emoing home
there was no one to talk to
nobody for me to relate my problems to
i felt... emo
thats all im going to work now

thanks for all you done
just a simple thanks

2008-03-28T11:50:00.002+08:00

i have funny finger nails
when they are long, it looks like lady's nails
when its short, it looks like men's nails

i have transexual nails lol
nah just a random post coz someone said my blog was dead

simply confused
what should i understand?
what should i do?

2008-03-26T17:08:00.002+08:00

work work! WORK!!!
is damn tiring
had to move so many things
count so many stocks
wrap so many shirts
count agian

for 3 days
10am-7pm
been damn tiring for me

?

2008-03-11T02:05:00.002+08:00

Went to genting with aloy and pat
Played lots of rollercoaster
ate lots of lousy food
shopped lots of lousy shops
but had tons of fun still

we went drinking on both nights
got real high
and i enjoyed it throughly
though aloy didn't drink much on the 2nd night we know why
pat drank more then she should have
the way she got high was funny

played some new card games
which pat thought us
was really fun
though i still suck at it

im real lazy to upload photos
go to my friendster to see some of my photos

last sat after i came back
went to haumphrey's house at ritz mansion i think
drank with haikel and nic
it was really damn high and i enjoyed it
but the following day headache was terrible

thats all ba

2008-02-28T12:09:00.002+08:00

When i woke up this morning
my mom shocked me with some news
My Aunty and her son had met an accident in ipoh
her son, ah teck had passed away
while my aunty is in ICU (intensive care unit)
they were on the way to vist my god grandma
but who knows this would happen
things were just getting better
they said they would be going to kuntan
ah teck said he would marry the girl
and my dad would sponsor half for the wedding
but all these had to happen
the worst thing was that
the police could not find anyone to contact
only 1 week later did they find out that
this accident happened

Somehow life is fragile
you have to live it without regrets
even that you have died this second
you would tell yourself that you had live a good life
treasure your loved ones and people around you

R.I.P

2008-02-25T21:37:00.005+08:00

GENISHA!!!!!!!

where have you been?
i was visiting your blog,
then i was wondering what happened to you
i felt a sore in my heart
it seems like you just disappeared into thin air.
i remember how we studied for Os
we used to sit at the canteen table
then i would chat with you
and you would just scream at me for distracting you
i remembered how the hand reading thingy made you high
how you told me your secrets and me telling you mine.
how i told you that i liked grace.
how you called me in the morning before ss prelims
the way you laughed damn loudly
i remembered eating sushi with you , jie ling and rachel they all
it was damn hilarious
those were the days yeah.
i doubt that i would ever get to spend times like that anymore
you would always send me lovely songs
like wonderful tonight by eric clapton
while i argued that damage was better
if you can come back for a holiday, please do call me okay?
i regretted not giving you a last hug during our last outing
anyway you're really an energizer and i really miss you.
if you bloodly read this please do something k
send me an email or msn me or something.

2008-02-24T16:18:00.002+08:00

Theres a new game out for psp
finally something which looks decent
NEED FOR SPEED : PROSTREET
or maybe it's been out for quite awhile
but i've just seen it only.
Wheres the god of war which i have been waiting for
since prelims I've been waiting for god of war
and still its not out.

Somehow, i feel that I'm all messed up
i have nothing to do everyday
all i do is spend money
chat on msn.
i really cant wait for school to start
or rather working in esplanade at the end of march
thats when my income starts coming in.

Heard some problems of my friend today
this friend of mine, was feeling real down
as his/hers friend X, was drifting apart from her
he/she felt lonely, please do look around you,
remember what i told you today
this is how it goes
this is how people are.

Asked claris to keep a Jack Russell today
bloodly hell she just shun me with a straight NO!
why does she hate jack russell, i find it cute
not because its my name lol
but maybe i miss my dog rannie too.

Rannie was my dog when i stayed in woodlands for 4 years
she was this cute little dog
who barked all day but never had the slightest guts to bite
One thing real bad about her,
she was racist(i feel this way)
there was once, i let her freely to run downstairs
she started chasing this malay boy
when i manage to catch her
the malay boy had run till he was like half dead
but it was sure funny to remember such stuff.

Oh ya, i'll be going to genting highlands with aloy and patrina
would be looking forward to it
as it would be without my parents
would upload photos if theres any.

Take care
drink more lemsip or eat more fabs
lol

2008-02-16T01:02:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling so all alone now,
When i need someone to talk to
No ones online

been back for almost a week now
china has been torture all because of the food
it seriously sucked
The food suck
from day 1 to day 8,
the food provided by the tour is the same
yuck!
starting it tasted good
after a few meals
it started to suck
lunch and dinner was the same
breakfast was normal hotel breakfast
the hotel i stayed were nice.
played fireworks and firecrackers
too bad i didn't take any photos
Went to hooter bar at beijing
lol the girls were WOOT
they were dancing and singing LOL

Spent valentine's day with grace
watch P.S i love you
followed by fish&co which was super cold lol
the food was okay
after that,
went to meet mom at vivo
nothing there so went home shortly
dad came home,
went for dinner
then mum was telling me about how my dad
bought her flowers and chocolates
and the box was a big heart shape
he denied at first
but admitted it at last
haha, it was damn funny

so I'm sitting down here
looking at my screen
with my cup of vodka
listening to this song called when I'm gone.
feeling all down and moody

Somehow,
I find something different about you
so different from any other people
you're just special
you make me think of you
every little thing you do counts

2008-02-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving in 3 hours time for the airport
Leaving Singapore at 1.30am
TERMINAL 3 WOOT
So many people ask me go china buy presents
buy clothes, LOL how to buy clothes there
all so thick, all winter clothing
would be back next Saturday
By then, i will be going around collecting ang pao WOOT
So then take care

First time i ever chatted with you on the phone
memorable haha
Finally being able to use the song
"I'm leaving on a jet plane" :)
Take care
And stop munching on those new year goodies
next time people go your house nothing to eat
:)

2008-01-31T03:28:00.000+08:00

I'm going to china on Friday night
1.30am flight
Terminal 3
kinda excited that it's Terminal 3
kinda sian cause i be sitting on the plane for quite awhile
Been going around to people house yesterday
i feel like I'm some kind of family welfare guy
haha
Be sure to check this blog
If i have wireless connection
i would be blogging down
=D see ya guys
may be posting tonight agian

Sometimes i wonder
what are you thinking?
who do you like?
do you like me?
I'm confused
I'm gonna use this trip
to sort my feelings out
hope you would too
maybe i should give up
I don't know

2008-01-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

hey!!! GOOD NEWS
ENGLISH B3
MATHS B3
Humanities B3
F&N B4
CHINESE C6
SCIENCE D7

Sad thing is that i failed science, engineering course doesn't want me,
so I'm appealing tomorrow for precision engineering.
But after much consideration, i decided to go into Information Technology
It's available in all the polytechnics but i wanna go NYP
So I'm real excited haha
It says that i can be an IT consultant,
which is the other dream job of mine besides CEO LOL
=D i can smile myself to bed tonight
I was shocked that i had so many Bs
many teachers hugged me
Alyssa hugged me too
and happy birthday girl tmr, its 12 on my com now.

So glad that you made it
happy for you
but some how
i wish we were together

2008-01-22T20:11:00.000+08:00

Results are out on thursday,
kinda excited LOL
if im able to go in to precision engineering,
that would be great.
been really in into that course
have my life planned out if im in that course.
But theres always a backup plan.
it just takes longer,
For those who are taking results soon,
i wish you all the best.
Good luck for you upcoming results.

by the way, i will be selling tissues there
2 packet 1 dollar.
I hope the reason i sell it to you is because you're too happy
till you cried.
Just kidding lol

Not sure if i should post my results here?
depends on my results i guess
if not good, might as well don't post
thats all for today

good luck!!!

Bored

2008-01-18T18:51:00.000+08:00

Grace is out walking from stadium to changi to east coast to pasir ris
Aloy is working his ass off and apparently something funny happened to him HAHA!
So I'm stranded at home doing nothing.
been going swimming this few days as I'm bored
and since theres a pool downstairs, might as well use it
I'm bored,
have been listening to Mr brown podcast again
sometimes it very hilarious but its short.
just as I am enjoying it, it ends.
been playing Warcraft 3 TFT this few days.
played dota wtf mode lol damn funny, spam skills like free
played diablo 8 hero siege. damn bug that map
boring
should i change my blog song?

Sometimes, i just don't get it
Maybe my sixth sense is lousy?
It's really confusing
but... i...

2008-01-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

"Crash And Burn"
By : savage gardern

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

This is for you<3

2008-01-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

oo I'm going to china.
though not really exciting
but i have not been to Beijing
not really looking forward to it
but I'm taking terminal 3
which I'm really excited about
when to buy air tickets with my parents.
Had dinner with them too
shocking surprising is that
my dad seems awfully cheerful today
our family were having a nice meal,
chatting and laughing away
I really love this feeling
followed by buying my thermal wear(long john) for china trip
it was like 60+, i was thinking could it be a rip off
might as well don't wear.

And oh ya i was talking to Genisha before i left home
it was so random but i remembered that my dad
fried an egg outside his door in Arabia
so i told genisha to freeze and egg outside her house
i too wanted to try to freeze and egg in my freezer
but i didn't want to waste my egg LOL.

Thinking of you just makes my day
Smile more
i Prefer to see you smile :]

2008-01-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

Finally went out today, went to get a hair cut
cut real short and i must say
its real cooling
after i had my haircut, i went to the casher to pay up
then i told aloy
after cutting my hair, my head feels lighter
and the casher laughed
was it so funny? lol
went to play lan followed by a movie
WHAT A CRAP SHOW
its called across the universe
its more like a musical and its two hours
TWO HOURS
during the show, i felt i was on drugs
the music and the graphics made me feel
weird lol.
went to mac to teach liting how to do mindmap for F&N
saw jane too
she looked much prettier
but she keep on telling me something
thats super funny
not telling u guys lol

I know it's gotta be you
You make my feeling fluctuate like no ones business
hmm, i guess i love you
i guess you dont

2008-01-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

Bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored

im so so so so bored at home, i typed all these words out lol
I ended up staying at home as mum didn't felt like going out

2008-01-08T14:15:00.000+08:00

Bored at home
going out later to get a jacket for china trip
Esprit agian, but i like it
bought a jumper yesterday at AIX
kinda like it
by the way, Happy birthday Mei wei, if you are reading this

Tonight tonight tonight
i wanna be with you
lets go to somewhere where
there are no worries and troubles

2008-01-07T17:04:00.000+08:00

Which Positive Quality Are You? Your Result: Love You are Love. Love is the glue that binds us all together. The love of family, the love of friends, the love between husbands and their wives--these things form the foundation of our happiness, our security, and our comfort. "All you need is love."
Friendship
Faith
Courage
Charity
Peace
Which Positive Quality Are You?

quiz

2008-01-07T03:05:00.000+08:00

It 3am already i guess
time passes by so quickly
i've been listening to music for the past few hours
and glancing back into the past years
through this few years
i sure had lots of fun
lots of jealousy
lots of anger
lots of happiness
lots of emo-ness
to think back, i feel glad
that i had this phase of my life
this phase of my life has made me a stronger person
lol i also don't know what im trying to say
it's just a weird feeling inside me
maybe I'm puzzled now
maybe I'm just tired
I don't know!
Another thing which i have been worried about
is my science, i need to pass it to get into the course i want
ha ha lets stop all these worrying
lets talk about yesterday...
went out with mitch, aloy and pat to a flea market
we 3 guys bought a watch each.
funny thing is that the shop owner sold me a watch he thought was low on battery
but it looked nice so i bought it
funny thing is that while we were on a cab to orchard,
mitchell was fiddling with the watch
he turn one of the screw on the watch
it was those you had to wind it up before it works
and i did not believe him at that time lol
so it ended up being a really nice watch and battery-less

this is the watch lol

yea we went to watch avp2, the ending kinda suck
but still a good show though.
went home after that =D

i just wanna tell you that i like you
you can't tell?
give me some hints
i understand hints easily lol
and i really hope to spend valentine's day with you

2008-01-06T15:17:00.000+08:00

hi, LOL
I'm bored today
so I'm here blogging today
many things have been happening recently
and it has triggered lots of my emotions
lets say this song that you are listening now
i heard it on someones blog and i love it
OMG i really like it
makes me so happy
and by the way
im changing my blogskins
could you guys help me find some? lol
i have been looking for the past few days, cant seem to find any that i like.
i prefer whole page blogs rather then clicking around to navigate
thanks :)

It just cheers me up
to see or even talk to you
every small little things count
and i swear that i still love you
<3 =D
takecare alright ^^

2008-01-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

HELLO 2008!!! GOODBYE 2007!!
Happy New Year Guys!!!

Although the countdown last night wasn't that great,
I'm still glad that i have you guys to accompany me through the new year
To those who are having problems,
Leave all the problems with the previous year
this is the new year.
had many ups and down last year
Anyway for those of you who are pek cek or angry, enjoy today

2007-12-27T20:05:00.000+08:00

Went roller blading with aloysius, mitchell, pat, nasiha and nazira today, tried it for the first time, it was real scary at first
i couldn't even stand, the distance from the shop to the skating ring might be very short,
but for me, it felt damn far.
i told mitchell to hold me, he ended up moving front, i fell but i pulled him
so he fell too... haha
went to the skating ring, practiced walking, and i was able to walk, but was still shaky
after much persuasion by everyone, i went out, on my way there, i feel once real bad
while the rest i fell down lightly as i knew i was falling
every time i approached a slope, aloy would be there shouting
lean forward, stop leaning backwards, stop moving your hands
it was damn stressfull, every 5 mins, my back would ache and i would sit down on the floor
around 1 1/2 hr we went back to the shop.
we took out the blades, guess what, it stink like hell
the smell followed us
went to a big rock to have a seat, followed by going to parkway parade to walk
Top man is having sales, but didn't buy any as we were all shy to try
cause we were sweaty.
we accompanied pat, seha and ira to the bus stop
after that, we 3 guys went to the market to eat
afterall, market food is cheap and delicious
took a bus home and thats it?
haha had a great day

Somehow, i still think
you and i
would be back together one day

2007-12-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hi nadine, since you're so interested in my blog
im blogging for you lol
this is what happened recently
went to have dinner with grace, genisha, wei leong and nazira
grace and ira was late so left with me, leong and genisha
we went to secret recipes to have a drink and waited there for them
all 3 of us drank esprit and got high over it
me and genisha laughed at everything
Ira came, when she sat, someone gave her flowers so sweet and so mysterious
grace came , we had dinner, upon leaving one of the waitress stopped us and ask if we paid
=.= thats like making us so cheapo like that, of course we paid
met haikel and watch alvin and the chipmunks, not a bad show
after that went to meet aloy, mitch, wanting and ris
wanting look super pretty today
while claris wore my fave black shirt haha
went to esplanade, seriously is not happening there
end up went to cineleisure to have supper and went home from there
thanks for the gifts guys i love you guys and merry xmas !!!
its still before 12 haha

2007-12-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

Worked my ass out this from yesterday morning till this morning,
I work as a merchandiser till 11pm yesterday,
Followed by bump out, in which i have to pack all the clothes and stuff
Was real tiring, i was exhausted, so much things to pack,
but it was worth it, had a free cab home, and earn more money,
working till 4am was the stressful part.

Im gonna go shopping next week =D
Maybe meet up with my classmates,
miss all of them, especially some =x

By the way, some stupid guy added me on msn,
speaks broken english or singlish,
and ask if we could be friends,
i think yes, but would be block and delete
haha im going back to sleep now, lacking of sleep

Random photos from my Iphone Camera

2007-12-09T00:53:00.000+08:00

2007-12-09T00:39:00.000+08:00

Wow look at all my lame post, haha. I'm so sorry
Been working alot this days, it's been fun.
And it's definitely more Pleasing to my wallet
its gonna be real thick on Tuesday =D

To those who ask me to link them
so sorry for the super late reply
i been reading my tag board
but too busy to update.
Just take today for example,
Work 12 hrs and slept 3 hrs.
Tomorrow I'm gonna work for 14 - 15 hours
But its all for my wallet,
gonna shop till i drop.
saw quite a few things i like
i saw a backpack at Oakley still wondering if i should buy it.
saw a pair of slippers at marina square today
new pair of shoes from Adidas, Puma and Nike
Clothes i don't know from where
and pants from my fathers friend shop
so many stuff so little money.

My boss told me he would be treating my colleagues and i to a meal
He rarely that generous,
His always bullying me, like today we play Big 2 the whole day
i won like 4 out of 30 game!!!
but his a nice guy =D
But im nicer

its sure a long post today, so don't say my blogs dead!!!

2007-12-02T00:06:00.001+08:00

2007-12-01T23:56:00.001+08:00

2007-11-22T13:06:00.000+08:00

Im sorry have not been posting again, been going out and out. Prom night was fun =D though i didn't get to sit with my classmates. Everyone was looking prettier and good looking than usual, Mr Prom king was aloysius, he sure gave me a good laugh. Ms prom queen was tabitha, Same class with aloysius too. And guess what? i went on stage too, was shocked yet happy =D got the cutest couple award haha. with who? i think you all know it too.

Last night had a night of my life too, went to watch chitty chitty bang bang with my colleagues, after the show, my god sis brought me to her friend, Jason, pub. we sang and sang, played hand games, dice games and i met this girl vivien she sure was pretty =D but too old lol. drank alot of beer there =X after that, we went to chijmes to listen to a live band, the songs they sang were WAY NICE, the best thing was that my god sis knew alot of people there, i was practically shaking hands with people there, drank vodka and choya, choya tasted great, the plum was the best, cant wait to go with her agian, when she gets her pay.

2007-11-08T11:50:00.000+08:00

It's been long since i last blog huh? No excuses studying or what, but the fact is I'm working at esplanade now, selling merchandise. I would go around the theater shouting my lungs out CHITTY CHITTY BANG BANG PROGRAMS!!!! GET YOUR PROGRAMS!!! lol. On the first day of work, i lost 10 bucks, had to pay it out of my pocket sigh. If im not working i guess i would be playing WOW. While my good friends are waiting to go out with me, so sorry especially tonight, say want go clubbing but im tired. You guys been waiting for me to finish work since the day i worked LOL. what good friends huh? haha. Last night i took a cab home after work as i thought there was no more bus service. As i boarded the cab, I remembered that it was The Indian new year, It was jammed at little India, and i had only 10 dollars. I told the uncle when the meter reaches 10 bucks i would walk home, he told me its okay, he would bring me home. I was so touched, Singapore has many hidden nice people. Im currently waiting for wei leong to get ready so we could go to kavin's house, his damn slow. ALOY, MITCH, PAT, NADINE, CLARIS, AND MANY MORE. we shall go out more often k? its the holidays =D

More or less
It has affected me
How i wished it would happen
You got me on my knees

2007-10-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

Went out with Mitchell, nadine, alfred, claris and binquan. Had a FUN FUN FUN time with them. craping as we went to orchard. Saw 2 potential prom clothes, gonna go buy them next week GOSH, it look so nice. We went to taka to see the mask, looks so nice and cute. we cam whored in a box along orchard road, there were so many people looking at us, we din't cared lol. Next we went to new york new york to celebrate nadine's birthday. I went to buy a cake while they went to queue up. Bought a cake from anderson and it was yummy. Cam whored at esplanade and went home after that.

I was born to tell you I love you
I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

2007-10-28T18:28:00.000+08:00

Had a great day with them =D

2007-10-24T16:55:00.000+08:00

Chem was tough, Real tough. I'm not sure how i am going to pass my Os. sigh... No matter how hard i studied, life is against me. My God sis lost my pay... The girl i love im not sure what shes thinking. Chem was so tough. sigh

2007-10-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Quiz to know yourself

2007-10-23T09:46:00.000+08:00

Yo ppl, thanks for reading my blog everyday. Im studying at crapping lol. Not much time is left to blog, still i thank you all for reading. Do me a favour will ya? tell me which char i should play for World warcraft. Druid - a shape shifter, which can change to a bear, cat, aqua and a flying type i think. Warrior - A good tanker. Rogue - fast and high damge but has little life. Hunter - stand real far and shoot arrows but has a pet. Paladin - good at defending. tag at my tagbox alrite? thanks.
yup back to my life, One moment im damn stress, the next moment im damn happy. To those i been suaning lately im sorry, real sorry.

2007-10-21T14:28:00.000+08:00

Os are round the corner.... WOOT... What is scary is after my Os, wondering what hold for me, and yup, im getting an i phone too. my dad bought 1 for my mum and me. Played Wow that day, Relived the feeling of WOW. Im damn excited to get my hands on warrior. its much better then my rogue =X Alright, i gotta admit im sick of studying, tired, but im not stress i guess. Rather im more stress that lies ahead after Os.

To you:
I'm thinking of you
but I'm studying too
Good luck for ours Os yeah ;)

2007-10-12T17:53:00.000+08:00

I've got so much to tell you, yet when i see you, I go blank. im not sure whats wrong with you today, but i can tell you're seriously troubled, is not good to keep it all to yourself. I'm one person who will hear all your problems and lend you a shoulder if you need one, give you tissues if you cry. but i doubt it will happen cause you're a strong girl right? Im not sure why, but there seems to be a barrier between us, its like that we are unable to talk to each other. But surely this is just because you are very focused now, this tough period will past soon. Seriously i know we can make it if we try, if we never try we will never know what outcome there will be. Surely you be reading this, this is all i want to say to you. Please try alright? smiles

We can make it if we try
we can make it you and I
A love like our's can't be denied
Could you be the kind to overlook
the faults in me
We don't have to last forever just
for the rest of our lifetime

2007-10-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

Im a student too
yet with so many emotional setbacks
Im going to try to use my studies to surpress my feeling
argh!
i feel so shitty all of a sudden
Stress
confused
tired
Lazy

2007-10-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

What a day =D Moms away, Dads going away too. Home alone soon, That would be cool and it would be lonely too, imagine going home no one to talk to. The silence which is deafening, i would miss my mum nagging voice, my dad television sound, my parents chatting sound. Sigh it would be for a week or so. Going home no one to talk to is really depressing haha. thats all for today takecare ya...

I've been waiting for a girl
like you, to come my way
And I've been searching for
that someone, who can
understand me,
someone who's not afraid to laugh
or cry, and share that with me.
And maybe thats you?

2007-10-05T16:31:00.000+08:00

O levels are so near, yet I'm thinking so much. I do study, but often i'd steal glances at you. It makes me feel motivated, but yet agian things do not appear as what you expect it to be. It seems like you are avoiding me, yet it does not. Theres something which been bothering me for quite awhile now, but im not gonna say it. Its my secret, i doubt i wont tell it to you. Just feel tired after going to gym and studying, feels like im gonna fall at anytime.

i miss you
do takecare alright
have more sleep

2007-10-03T16:20:00.000+08:00

Discovered something today, was quite moody for awhile, but got back to myself. Went to eat pizza hut with Grace, Wei leong, Matthew, ajmal, Haumphrey, amos and Eradie. Ate my baked rice and left. I don't feel like blogging anymore lol.

Perhaps life is different
For me
Withing 3 days i felt all love could mean
1. I love you, but i do not dare to tell you
2. I love you and you love me too
3. I love you and im waiting
I just dont understand?

2007-10-01T21:58:00.000+08:00

Everything is happen so fast, was reading cui's blog, i almost cried. Please do takecare ok? Theres always ris and me there for you. Went to night study, practiced maths straight away, question after question, it was 9 already. Time just seem to speed past through, everything that is happening recently seems super fast and yet it felt like it lasted so long. I'll wait, hope that feeling would not change, i really like you.

I'll could wait along side with you
to hear your heartbeat
I could spend my life in the sweet surrender
every momment i treasure with
i would not want to close my eyes
as im scared that you'll be gone when i open my eyes

2007-09-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting for the past few days, Was tired. Got C5 for maths, was quite sad, but decided to do my best for Os. Failed my geog as usual, got 15/50 i think. Ms liu was so concerned for me when i never replied lol. Haha, shes been reading my blog too, better not post anything bout her haha. Had a long chat with her, only me and her know what we talked about =D thats our secret haha. was watching naruto shippuuden just now, I can tell you, this episode is the BEST in shippuuden series. Damn it was nice, not gonna spoil it for you guys. But while i was watching it, my maid was irritating me, clean my table GOSH! I need a pair of slippers, anyone recommends any good brand? Nike? Please don't ask me to buy briks, I Don't really like them and personally feel is not worth 100 over bucks for a pair of slippers. Wanted go queensway today to buy shoes and slippers, think is not possible as Haikel, Chia How and Wei leong are coming over to swim. Plus tonight aloy and mitchell ask me go SOMEWHERE! I really wish to go, but cash are running real low, Energy levels are running out!

Maybe i should tell you i like you?
Maybe i should not?
I really hope to tell you
But i dare not,
In fear, that friends we may not even be
I rather stand by your side and hear you heart beat
Then to lose a friend of mine
BUT IM SCREAMING!!!
I WANT YOU!!!

2007-09-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

Today morning's rain was real bad, mum fetched wei leong, claris and me to school. Was dry like a sand lol. The exam was alright, but something shocked me. I went to the toilet, but not alone, the teacher escorted me all the way in. ee yer! Went to play floorball after that. played with the 4Es. Fun game, but someone knock me on my head, my spects was dented aww. went home after that, going to watch a movie with wei leong, haikel. followed by dinner at swensens.

You're the best
I love you
tell me that you love me too
WOoosh!
And here is my heart for you

2007-09-26T01:21:00.000+08:00

Its 1am, cant sleep. Maybe it's you who is occupying my brain. I can't seem to sleep, I cant seem to study. Talk about what have happen recently, Yesterday, My cousin called me to cry, she said she failed 5 subjects out of 7. Then when i went home, my parents were like "so how many you fail?" Sometimes parents just don't understand how demoralised i feel when they say this kind of things to me. My cousin is from express and she is from a so called "Branded" school. while i am from a "AH BENG, AH LIAN" school, and im in the normal acadamic stream. Sometimes i just hope that my parents can be more understanding. From young, they always tell me demoralising stuff, which may not look like they affected me, but infact it has made me numb. I always laugh in school, but how many of my laughter are truly true? How many time do i show, how i really feel. Friends are not what im lacking of, A soulmate is what i need. But maybe im just not destined to have one. Like ajmals palm reading, i have no kids. whats the point? being lonely is not a very fun thing. I do admire One of my friend's endurance to wait for the girl he loves. He really made me feel so motivated thanks! I wish i could score well for once I really want to show my parents, that im was from express too, don't look away just yet, give me one more chance and i'll show you. But the energy just drains up whenever my relatives ask me" so fail how many?" CAN THEY NOT BE SO KPO! Another thing is that, why are all my friends so lucky to have people celebrate their birthday, i remebered mine as a lonely birthday, i went home straight after school, as my mother had gone through a rough patch at that time. so people cherish your birthday celebrated by your friends, i do hope next year would not be an lonely birthday for me agian. Who know where i might be next year? Maybe i'll be gone...

I scream so loudly in my heart
For your name whenever i feel demoralised
But a wind blows past me
you are gone again
when will you stay?
when will i get to holf you down?
when will the day come?
can i wait like my friend?
or maybe by then you'll be gone
my only words to you is not i love you
but I WANT YOU!!!

2007-09-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

Did not have time to blog this few days, been studying for my prelims. Today went to celebrate haikel and teng jin brithday at marina south. The food was super salty and mrs anna lim was there complaining lol. we went to play bowling afterwards, did not get a strike, how lousy can i get lol. then something happen, only haikel, chia how and me know haha. went to parklane to take a bus home. Then my EZ link spoil, paid for the fare and went home.

The thought of you
makes me go high
wish you were with me today

2007-09-19T14:54:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 4 am to study today, study ss and drank 9 cups of tea haha. Had breakfast and went to school. SS was alright, wrote alot and wrote damn fast. Maths was a breeze so simple just that a few careless mistake. Went to have dinner at lor 7 with grace genisha and matthew. My fish soup was crap, dessert was yummy. But matthew's dessert suck, had processed durian filling YUCK! haha.. went to night study, studied real hard. Chia how said i look man and cool today when im tired and studying real hard. haha

I fear lonliness too
Like anyone else
I loved to have someone
Whom i can talk to
And a person who loves me

2007-09-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

Today had chinese paper, wrote a 4 page essay, letter writing suck. Paper 2 was alright except for 1 killer comprehension, die! After my exams rush to maths tution, then went home to shower. Went to school to find mdm kavitha, thought i would be alone, but Genisha and Grace was there already =.= stayed till night study, had an intensive night study learn 3 chapters in 1 hour+, Emoed when i was done studying.

Everytime i see you
I'll be so tempted to burst out
How i feel towards you
Maybe one day i really will
Who knows?
You might say yes too haha

2007-09-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today studied from 12 - 9pm, WTF is like 9 hours! Crap around most of the time, disturb mdm Kavitha and lied to her twice that i was having stomach ache, when i went out to call for pizza the first time and to collect the pizza for the 2nd time. Went to have dinner at lor 7, food kinda suck but edible. wei leong dad fetch me home after that. OMG GENISHA!!!!

Though the mind is desperately forgetting you
the heart still has picture of you
yearning to hear your voice
to be with you as long as possible

2007-09-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 2pm today, was damn tired. Went to have a look at my new house in paya labar, it looked quite big, but im not staying there, coz my parents are renting it out. came home at 5pm, studied for 2 hours and proceeded for tv, King Arthur. what a nice show! Was browsing through Ragnarok online 2. Look like World of warcraft, quite tempted to play :) but my Os are comming!!! Better study! My arms are aching, the plasters i pasted are burning arh! cant wait to go gym again.

It's simple to make me happy
All i need is someone to love me
That someone is you
Quarrels we may have
But love is what i promise to give you
I feel like hugging you!!!

2007-09-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Went out with my cousins today, it was his birthday. I don't really know him as we have been seperated for a long period of time, Maybe 10 - 12 years? He got this car which i quite like, it a suzuki swift, not bad. Went for lunch at a hotel, cant remeber the hotel name. Food was so so only, ate alot of the same food, yucks. Later he brought me and my cousins out to watch a movie RATATOIUE again!!! Followed by pasta mania. Then he brought me home. Overall his a nice guy and his a SS and ENGLISH teacher now. He wanted to give me some of his toys too. But i din't want, lol his girlfriend was pretty :) My ARMS ARE ACHING

See so many people are wanting to know who you are
If you were mine,
I would tell the world you're the one for me
If you were mine,
I would walk every step with confidence
Im just to dumb to not tell you that i like you

2007-09-14T16:12:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!! English was alright actually :) Went to gym with manfred, alfred, william and mitchell. Did lots of workout not bad~ Felt great after that. My arms are aching, im tired. Night studies later lol.
i would post more later, Mitchell is beside me sewing his button LOL!

Here i am
seeing you smile
wish i was the reason that made you smile
Maybe my dream would come true one day

2007-09-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

Haha night lesson was FUNNY, It all started with Genisha going maAAAAAthew. Followed by Ajmals palm reading, He read mine and said i be rich, either with career or passion, But i will have no kids, sad. Then he read IVY'S, Ivy passion line would bring her down and debts on her tail. Ajmal then asked her what her passion was? she said singing, dancing and acting! then matthew said " Lets say we were watching bruce almighty, then the show ended, then ivy started to sing, he would go "WA LAN EH!!!" and he would rush to shut
the tv." The way he said it was damn funny. AHA i finally told someone my secret felt much better =D thanks! you know who you are... keep it a secret will ya? Had a fun night study today with all the sex and stuff lol.

May the day come
When i have the courage to tell you
that i ... ...

2007-09-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!! Practical was tough!!! After practical went to popular to get some stationary, They are having a 20% sale!!! hurry haha. bought a pilot pen and a shaker pencil cost about 10 bucks. After that went to have lunch with Genisha, Grace, Bernerd, ajmal, Matthew, Eraidie and ivy at Long John silver. We sat around there till 4+ almost 5 lol, sat there chatting about our families and other stuffs. Suddenly ivy was doing a direct name translation in chinese, My name is pull tongue in chinese lol. Then genisha made one for matthew which was very cute. She went maAAAAAthew. Seriously it was damn funny and cute, haha. Im broke spent so much money :(

Why do you just keep popping out in my mind?
Or maybe you din't really left my mind
Was on the bus thinking
How i'd feel if you were with me
Maybe we'll be together someday
With all the love that i have
Happiness is what we'll see